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wow...havent blog in my own blog for so long!!! april was my last post haha. It's Nov now! man..that's 7 mths of absent haha. I think I will be more free up to blog since I'm Single now. I think I owe people who know me some explaination of what happened.

Yea I know it's shocking to know Jas and I broke up. 3.5years of relationship...ain't easy for us too. In case some people thinks that I fall in love with another girl or I did something behind Jas's back, the answer is NO!!!!! -_-

I made some mistakes that hurt her a lot and I've been so into my own world that I've neglected her so badly. I did asked her for a patch up, but she told me she needs more time to get over those hurts and want to be single for now. Hopefully, we will be together again 1 or 2 years later. I've mix feelings over her responds though, I was overjoyed to know she still loves me despites all the hurts I've caused. But I'm kind of worried over the waiting time. Thoughts like: will she fall for another guy during this period of time, will our love be the same, how am I gonna cope with my life without her? and many more..

It's really tough on me, she plays such a big part of my life. Without her, I felt so handicap emotionally. Can't seem to focus on my studies and everything else that I've been working on.
Some of you might know, I love guitars a lot!!! There has never been a day where I didn't play my guitars. haha..but when we first broke up..for the 1st 2weeks, I was so moody that I didn't play my guitar or doing anything. I spend most of my time pondering, emoing and watching dvd(comedy helps a lot during breakup haha)...I guess I'm quite a emotional guy. I lost 8kg!!! I'm now 58kg haha and I've got gastric problem during the first 3 weeks of the breakup.

Ya, the breakup hit me real badly. This is the first time in my life, I've ever felt so much pain and grieve. I used to laugh at people being emo during their breakups and I will mock at them for taking so long to recover haha...now that I've know how it felt, man I'm so sorry to had said those things to these people. lol...(sorry hui tian hahaha)

Anyway, I think since it's over. I can't possibly cry everynight and get emo all the time. It's difficult though, but I believe I will get better as time goes by. This is what I've learnt from the breakup and hopefully it helps some guys other there to cherish their love ones more :)

Guys are like children, we don't know what our priorities are until we lose what's important to us. We realise our mistakes when what's important to us had left us. We learn and change but it's often too late to make any remedy....because it's too late and what we love had already left, we grow up, mature, learn how to cherish what we love.

I realize that Love makes one irrational, love makes weaknesses insignificant and highlights strength, Love is not merely having feelings of chemistry, it’s developed through trials and time. When you love someone you’ll change yourself for the one you love.

We can't read between lines and telling guys hints are as good as talking to the wall. haha we don't get it. *lol* So the best way to get across a guy is to be specific, detail and straight to the point.

I think I’ve blog a lot for 1 entry haha..I wonder who will read my blog since it’s been so dead. Lol =)

posted @ 4:18 AM